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This country is so fucked up I can't even wrap my mind around it! I feel like I am falling. How can people not see what is going on here? I feel completely powerless to stop this gigantic snowball rolling down a mountain getting bigger and scarier every second! God save us!
I found out my school offers free counseling and had decided to go when I realized I am scared to go.
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[05 Nov 2002|02:55pm] |
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My kids are off school for election day, and because all I do is go there on Tuesdays, I am home all day, doing laundry and feeling guilty for not having gotten an absetee ballot. You see, I have refused to give up my Ohio resedence in favor of Kentucky, where I currently reside, because Kentuckians don't get to vote for anything except people. That is very sad to me. I was shocked to learn in my State and Local Politics class that more states than not only vote for offices, not issues. I would never want to live in a state like that. I never realized how much there is to consider when deciding where to live. Like, we (Shawn and I) always thought we wanted to move to Arizona after we finish school, but then I found out they do not recognize Martin Luther King Day (or at least they didn't, I have heard that they do now, but I don't know for sure.). I don't think I could voluntarily choose to live somewhere that doesn't recognize MLK Day. I wonder what New Mexicans get to vote on.
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[30 Oct 2002|12:18pm] |
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The Halloween party was a blast! I can't remember the last time I had so much fun. And I usually get scared with so many people, especially so many I don't know, but I was just a little social butterfly. If I can figure out how, (little help, Share?) I will post a picture of me in my Marge costume. I won the best overall costume prize. It was a bottle of Jagermeister (sp?).
My car died. I hate cars.
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[24 Oct 2002|09:31pm] |
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Wow, I am really bad at this whole journal thing. To those of you out there who care, I apologize. Let's see, since I last wrote not a whole lot has happened. I am staying busy with school. My lessons with the 5th graders have been going really well, and I am having a great time with them. They are really cool kids and I will miss them a lot when the semester is over. Shawn and I went on a camping trip with our friends Ginny, and Brock. We went to Cumberland Gap and did some deep woods off trail camping. It was very fun. Shawn and I almost got eaten by a coyote in the middle of the night when we got up to pee (well, not really, but there was one not more than 10 ft. from us). It was pretty scarey. We hiked about 3 miles up a mnountain to an amazing overlook. Brock brought his 2 month old puppy. we had a grand ol' time. Also saw a few really good shows. Pork Tornado was a lot of fun, but kind of disapointing. Yonder Mountain String Band rocked as always! They are so much fun. We have been helping Michelle and Borden plan their huge costume party. That happens sat. night and I am very excited. there will be kareoke, so watch out everyone. I am going to be Marge Simpson. That's about it.
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[24 Sep 2002|12:38pm] |
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I am sad. We tried so very hard, every way possible, and got no tickets to any of the upcoming Phish shows. Oh Phish! We missed you so much. No one I know was able to get tickets and they are ridiculously expensive on ebay. I have officially given up hope. Whoa is me!
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[17 Sep 2002|12:34pm] |
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I've decided to try to get back into the habit of updating at least a few times a week. My sister says it makes her happy and if 10 minutes out of my busy schedule can be devoted to making my sister happy, that is cool.
My lesson went really well today. The kids were into it and seemed to enjoy it and learn from it. My supervising teacher gave me some really good comments. I got some great samples from the kids. So all in all, not bad.
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[16 Sep 2002|07:11pm] |
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This semester I am in a fifth grade class for 6 hours a week. I was very scared of fifth graders but all is going really well. It is a great group of kids. I have to teach them a lesson by myself for the first time tomorrow and i am terrified. I have never even planned a lesson for over 4th grade. Yikes. Wish me luck.
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[20 May 2002|03:05pm] |
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All work and no play (or sleep) makes Jodi a very cranky girl!
Jeesh, i never realized how much school and work could really affect my mood. Class from 9-2 and work from 3- 10:30 is a long day! But money is good!
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[14 May 2002|03:02pm] |
Wow!! That's all I can say. Go and read.
(thanks Share)
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[10 May 2002|02:41pm] |
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I got my hair whacked off yesterday!!!! My hair is my security blanket and to some extent my identity, so I'm pretty freaked. But it looks good. It is still pretty long by most people's standards, to my bra strap, but it is much shorter than I intended. It will grow, I suppose!
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[09 May 2002|12:02am] |
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I just got my grades. I got an A in everything except for a stupid B in my stupid Computer applications for teachers class. it was only a 1 credit class and about twice as much work as every other class. it was also very stupid busy work, and it kept me from getting my 4.0!!! I'm pretty disapointed. I know that a 3.9 is really good, but it's no 4.0! Total bummer.
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[08 May 2002|02:37pm] |
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went out last night with work friends and got drunk and did karaoke. It was a ton of fun. We went last week too, I think it will be a weekly thing, which is good for me. i don't normally drink, because i stopped enjoying at some point, but I had the best time. I get to harmlessly flirt with cute boys with no worries, and that is good for me too. I get a little something out of that flirting that I don't really get from Shawn in that same way anymore. Not because there is anything wrong with our relationship, just because we have been together for so long. but it is nice to have that aspect in my life, it feels good to be flirted with.
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[30 Apr 2002|04:01pm] |
I just watched 2 birds totally beat the crap out of each other on my balcony. it was the weirdest thing I have ever seen. they were going at each other for at least 5 minutes until one kind of hobbled off and flew away. Weird.
I haven't updated in a while because I have been very busy with school. Finals start tomorrow. I can't wait for this semester to be over. I think I will have a 4.0 unless I totally screw up my finals.
Tomorrow I am watching my friend Amy's 1 year old, Alex, all day until my final at 6:15. I am excited. he is such a cool little kid! We will have fun.
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[23 Apr 2002|07:59pm] |
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I am in such a good mood. Love is a many splendor thing. I made a mix tape for babies/little kids. It has everything from Disney songs, to The Beatles, to Phish, to Puff the Magic Dragon. I love it and I want to give it to every baby I know. I made it for Alex (my friend Amy's little boy) and Emmett (Shawn's nephew), but now I am making a copy for myself to have and give to every baby that comes into my life, including my own future babies. which by the way, I now honestly beleive again that my babies will also be Shawn's babies. We had some major breakthroughs and things are fabulous right now. i just hope we don't slip back into the old bad habits of basically ignoring and taking each other for granted. I really don't think that will happen this time. Wish us luck everyone. he is a great guy and will be a wonderful husband and father vto someone someday. I hope it is me. (He's only had my engagement ring in a drawer for about 3 years now!)
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[23 Apr 2002|12:08pm] |
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I think everything with SAhawn and I is going to work out. We had the big talk last night and for a while I htought it was going to be bad. he actually had his bags packed and was on his way out the door. i think he needed to see that I was going to let him go to realize that he didn't want to. that he is still in love with me. He is really going to try to make me happy again. I circled the date exactly 2 weeks from last night on the calander in red. that is the day we will reasses the situation. I really have a good feeling about this. I know that we are meant to be together, i just hope we can overcome the mistakes we have made. And i really think we can. I believe in love and I beleive in us, and i am truly happy again, for the first time in a really long time.
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[19 Apr 2002|12:44pm] |
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Off to NY in about an hour. i am very excited, but I also feel a little guilty leaving for a couple reasons:
a) I have tons of school work I should be doing
b) it isn't exactly a perfect time to leave Shawn, but I'm sure things will be okay.
I'm a little worried his grandma won't make it through the weekend and I won't be here, but we saw her yesterday and she looked pretty good. I think she's got at least a good month in her. Also, last night while we were at his parents house, his grandpa (Paul)called and said he was having chest pains. Shawn's mom left me alone with Emmett, his 5 month old nephew, (everyone else was out running errands) and took his grandpa to the er. All that family needs is to lose him now with everything going on with Wilma (Shawn's grandma). We haven't heard from them today, so I am assuming everything was ok with Paul, but still. Anyway, my sister needs me, and we are going to have so much fun, so I will focus on that and have a blast with my sis, and I'm sure everything will be fine with Shawn's family. As for school, I still have 2 weeks, so knowing me, I probably wouldn't have done any work this weekend anyway (I am the biggest procrastinator in the world!!)
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[16 Apr 2002|07:10pm] |
My sister is flying me out to NY to see her this weekend. Three cheers for sisters!
hip hip...
hip hip...
hip hip... HOORAY!!!
It is going to be a lot of fun. I like hanging out with my big sis.
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[05 Apr 2002|11:34pm] |
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I spent all my freetime yesterday and today at the nursing home mainly entertaining 5 small children and an infant (Shawn's cousins and nephew). It was very fun, but very tiring. I am still worried about how Shawn is handling things. He seems TOO okay. His aunt told me while I was in the dining room with the kids his grandpa told Shawn he should stay at the nuring home because there are lots of cute girls (meaning the nurses I guess, not the residents). he told his grandpa that he already has a cute girl down the hall (that would be me), and he thought he'd keep me because I know the hwole family and actually want to stay. It was nice to hear he still thinks I'm cute. i don't know why he can't tell me that, but that is just the way he is. Something I can learn to live with. my mom has. I guess it is somewhat true that girls marry their fathers. scarey.
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